Saturday, April 27, 2013

Goldfish

Goldfish
Don't hibernate.
They swim
Not sleep
Don't be stupid.
The end.

It's 2:04 in the morning and I may or may not be sane. I also may or may not be on a sugar rush from a brownie and cheesecake. That was good. Mmmmm.... nom nom nom.

Monday, April 22, 2013

(Untitled)

A boy, a man
Constantly in battle
The dreams of his past
Lurking in the shadows
He's caring, trusting
Lost too much to know
Just how deep his character
Or how far his impact goes
A student, a teacher
Constantly learning
A friend, a writer
Out on a journey.

Yes, a real person. No, I'm not saying who it is. ;)

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

You know...

"You know"
No I don't
I never did
I don't know you
I don't remember
Who you were
And I don't know who
You're becoming
"Well, you know"
No
I don't know you
Not any more.


Finally caught up with all my Napowrimo posts!

Legend of the Shadow Blade

In the fiery depths of Hell t'was forged
That gleaming, glistening, glittering sword
By the hands of a devilish slaving horde
T'was wrought and brought before their lord
The striker blade did sing of death
The master's heart it stole, and breath
His heart it bound, his spirit kept
When first the sword and man had met
His mortal hand destruction brought
And murder consumed every thought
That demon blade many battles fought
And blood poured out upon the rocks
For many years the king did reign
Upon the power of the slain
Their lifeblood gave him life and strength
And their ghosts' voices cried his name
The battles fought, the wars were won
Never set on the kingdom did the sun
The cost made evident when all was done
More animal than man the king had become
The gallows haunted him with fear
His body dangling in the air
A corpse with no life left to lead
A man who'd left his sanity
The gallows did not take his life
Rather the darkness of his knife
For he had died before he'd hanged
His soul was stolen by the blade.

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Find Me There

Somewhere in the lazy night
Where moon and stares shine so bright
Somewhere in the tired night
You will find me there
Step past the river's gentle flow
Through the quiet moonlit grove
Up to the mouth of the darkened cave
Jump with me and float away
You will find me there
Ballroom music from afar
Our spirits soar above the sky
I see us there, just you and I
For you have found me there.

I have no idea what I was thinking at the end. The scheme/flow jolts... I'll fix it later.

Mirrors

When you look into the mirror
You see yourself
Not your reflection
Not your expression
But you
Maybe that's why people
Hate looking into mirrors.

Sunday, April 7, 2013

Human

He has a family
A story
A life beyond this hell
He's got dreams
He's got plans
But they're not going well
He's got hope
He's still praying
Doesn't know if he believes
He's still trying
Still fighting
These urges to bleed
You're just joking
Just playing
A laugh between friends
But the voices
They whisper
"They're right. Make it end."
He hides it
Of course
No one must see
You'd all think
He's dangerous
And see him differently
The danger's inside
And it's just
So truly terrifying
To be living
With these lies
And these ghosts and demons taunting.

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She's lonely
She's hurting
She's breaking inside
From the anger
And emotions
She tries so hard to hide
She struggles
She's drowning
In raging, stormy seas
Her hope
Is fadeing
But she's trying to find relief
You're talking
About her
Like she's not even there
Laughing
And mocking
Like you don't even care
She's got a future
A purpose
But she just can't see
Outside of
These cages
Of silence and crushed dreams
She can't let
You know it
She'd just let you down
And she's done that
Too often
To forgive herself now.

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They're human
Do you see
What their value is?
They are people
Just like you
And they truly need a friend
Someone they can
Count on
Who will be by their side
As they go through
These struggles
That say that they should die
To tell them they care
That they matter
That these things are real
That there's more
To these trials
Than what they now feel
That there's hope
Chances exist
That these things will fade
That even though
It does hurt
It's going to turn out okay
These kids are hurting
Don't you see?
You're walking by every day
Watch for them
Help them
To make it through another day.




This probably needs editing, but I really don't feel like doing that right now. Maybe later. Maybe. For now, don't forget to remember how important it is to be human.

Fragments of a new forming Spoken Word



There is now a new microphone
The emphasis of our worlds made known
As words trickle out
From our mouths to your headphones
And the distance we’ve created
Becomes tightly closed
As lives and worlds are intertwined
And my words reach your ears
As your hands reach out to mine
And I learn so quickly to sympathize
Empathize
Because these words aren’t just words
And these thoughts aren’t just mine.


Our generation, these generations
Have nothing in the way of stopping them
Except themselves, ourselves,
 As we continue watching this in our perpetual apathy
And this kind of confused breed of careless complacency
As we pretend to reach out to the least of these,
Our silence proves nothing more
Than disconnected unbelief


And you sit there
So busily absorbed in your computer screen
Thinking surely what you say
Won’t affect people individually
Won’t affect the community
Won’t make such a difference culturally
That someone loses their identity
Because surely
There is a new realm here entirely
In which these messages are more than fantasies
And there is more to our words
Than some misunderstood reality
But really.
The words that you speak
Can heal or they kill
No one ever really thinks that they will
But they do
They can hurt or they can build
Put up fences and walls
Or raise up those that words have killed
They can break a heart
Or restore a relationship
Make something right
Or draw out the worst of it
They can help someone find the strength to fight
Or they can point out weakness
Make darkness from the light
Or bring awareness to a sickness
Your words could be a rally cry
Or they could slaughter everyone
But really.
These words won’t affect anyone.
Will they?

Restoration (new title suggestions?)

The clouds roll
And cover the sky
They look down low
And begin to cry
The world turns black
As the water flows down
Like it did long ago
When blood fell from a crown
The earth shuddered as the crimson
Shattered upon its face
The ground shook and rumbled
And fell back into place
And the thunder roared louder
In the darkness of night
God and man united
Once again
And there was new restoration
Through pain and displacement


Based on the song Sound and Fury by My Epic

Pulses


Pressure.
  Walls caving in.
  It's hard to breathe.
Undone.
  Where did I begin?
  What lies underneath?
Liar.
  Cover up my sin.
  Resort to unbelief.
Savior.
  Can this really be the end?
  I only want to see.
Ending.
  The darkness once again.
  Learning to believe.
Silence.
  I can never mend.
  Praying for release.


So, I've been writing for Napowrimo, but not posting. Today I'm catching up on all my missed posts.

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

John

I have watched my brothers die alone
I've been sent away from home
I have watched my friends all fade
I've seen the thunder and the rain
It all washes away away
When I've worked so hard to make it stay
It all washes away away
All I wanted was for this to remain

I have built my castles in the sand
I have sculpted all from my own hands
I have written the things I've seen
But nobody seems to truly believe
It all washes away away
I only wanted for this to stay
These kingdoms, these people away away
I just wanted it to remain

I have followed Messiah Christ
I have stood and watched Him die
I was there when He returned
I saw the tongues of fire burn
Will it wash away away
We all hope this does stay
We sit, we wait, don't go away
This we hope and this we pray

I watched the Savior's blood fall down
Onto the rocky, dusty ground
I knew He'd come to save the earth
I knew He'd some day soon return
It will never wash away away
The Kingdom of God forever stays
Never fades away away
The word of Christ our God remains.

Monday, April 1, 2013

Allegiance

We pledge allegiance
To ourselves
The very center of our universe
And to the values
For which we stand
The only truth
Is the individual
Without justice or mercy
For all.

A little cynical, perhaps. But such is life.